As I’m writing this, my heart is heavier than it has been in a long time. My situation, however personally devastating to me, is not of importance here. The truth is this: every one of us has those things that break our hearts. In fact, trouble and trials are pretty much guaranteed in this earthly life.

In James God tells us this: Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (James 1:2-4 NASB)

Notice that He doesn’t say IF. He says when. It’s as good as a promise. And God does keep His promises. Not every trial is designed by God, although I believe that some are. He knows that we live in an imperfect sinful world with imperfect sinful people. That is a perfect recipe for trouble.

Whether we hurt ourselves or other people hurt us, pain is a part of life. What we do with those circumstances, the pain. That is up to us.

My choice is that I will draw closer to God. I will remember that He said He will take away our worry and give us peace if we ask it of Him.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6, 7 NASB)

I believe that trials test our faith, help us grow in Him, making us into what He wants us to be. I can and I will find joy in that fact. I will seek Him and I will seek what it is that He hopes I will learn, because He will make something good from this bad.

I am so grateful that in times of hardship, heartache and trouble, I have the Word of God to turn to, which offers answers and hope and comfort on every page. I will call myself blessed that He would leave that for us to lean on.

And I will turn to Him in prayer. Because few things can comfort you like a conversation with the Creator of the universe, who loves us all enough to pay the price He paid for us. When you have nothing left, you can cry out to Him and He will answer you.

In my trouble I cried to the LORD, And He answered me. (Psalm 120:1 NASB)

So on a day like today, when I am tempted to feel lost and hopeless, I will use the tools He gave me. I will read His Word, pray without ceasing, keep my faith, and trust in Him to sustain me as He has already so many times before.

Grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord; (2 Peter 1:2 NASB)

His Truth in Love


This morning I had to question my own compassion. Or rather, I had it questioned FOR me.

In my line of work, compassion is a must. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes it’s the most frustrating job in the world, and my patience AND my compassion often wear thin. All in all though, I love the people I labor with, despite their many flaws, and more than anything, I absolutely hate to see someone in pain…especially when it’s not within my control to make it better.

I often rail at many injustices in the world. I hurt for people that are hurting. Why then, do I find it so very difficult to share my faith with others?

If I truly believe that the wages of sin is death, (and I do), then why do I hesitate to offer the hope of Heaven and eternal life to the people that need it? I believe that without salvation through Jesus Christ, those lost people will spend eternity separated from God, and yet I very often selfishly place my own security and comfort above those eternal consequences.

In my last post, I said (and meant) that I feel called to write. That I feel most able to share God, to share Christ in this way. But between then and now, no excuse has been too small to keep me from writing here.

This event/time/party/holiday only comes around so often;
Spending time with my family or friends is so important;
I could use the money if I worked extra;
I have to make time to work out;
I haven’t had enough sleep;
I could be cleaning or doing laundry;
I never get to watch TV.

I can always think of something else I could be doing.

The truth is, I have been afraid. It is scary to put your faith out there for everyone to examine, and with it your life. I am afraid to be judged. I am afraid to be rejected.

I have told myself that when I get everything right, I’ll be in a better position to tell others about Christ. In fact, I won’t even have to tell them, because they will see it all over me.

But that attitude couldn’t be more wrong. I am a work in progress, and while I have made huge changes in my life with the power of God behind me, I still do and always will fall short. I will keep working on it. I will study the Word of God, I will spend time in prayer, I will surround myself with Godly people that keep me accountable.
I pray that more and more, my life will reflect the love of Christ.

Until then, I will not use that as a catch all excuse for not doing as I have been commanded.

“Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19, 20 NASB)

The truth is, it should be easy. I believe that the Creator of everything, despite my great and numerous imperfections, loves me beyond measure and has paved the way for me to spend eternity in a perfect place in His presence, by sending His Son to attone for my sins.

I believe that grace and mercy and peace are mine in abundance because I have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

I believe that accepting Christ changed my life in ways that I can barely grasp, and hardly describe.

I grew up in church but it took me years to grasp that. Many people shared Jesus with me, many times over and for many years before I could receive Him.

The least I can do is pay that blessing forward.

And if I am rejected, I should be honored if I have the chance to suffer rejection in the name of Christ.

{Lord, I pray that You would strip away all the excuses. Let me love people the way You love them, and give me an urgency to reach those that do not have You. Let me seek ways to share You at every opportunity. I pray that You would draw those people to me, create those opportunities, and give me Your words to say. Give me boldness. I ask that You continue to work in me, that everything I say and do might bring glory and honor only to You. In Jesus’ Name I pray. Amen.}

This is the first blog I have ever written…
I grew up with a gift for writing. I wrote easily and often and (usually) well. Now it has been more years than I care to admit since I have used my gift, and as a result, I have watched it deteriorate with growing regret. Now, I hope to remedy that.

I also grew up going to church. Being what I thought was Christian. I’ve known about God since I can remember, but I never really “got it” and had a personal relationship with Christ until this year.

I feel different than I ever have before. I have a passion to learn about God in every way that I can. I crave to study His Word, hunger to be closer, know more, live in obedience, and be in His service. In truth, I feel called to ministry, but I do not know exactly what my place will be.

Since I have always known and loved writing, I felt this was the best way to start. I hope to rediscover my love and talent for words by using them to glorify and honor my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and share some study of His Word.

If you’re reading this, I welcome you to take a journey with me. I am no expert, and am so far from perfect that I am amazed every day by His mercy and grace that blesses me so much. I hope no one ever thinks they feel judgement from me here. My aim is to study His word…to ponder it, analyze it, absorb it, and find in it the truths that He left for us and work to find practical ways to apply them to my life, to discover His will for my life, and above all to glorify Jesus Christ and contribute to the growth of His kingdom if I am blessed enough to be able to do so.

Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, (Galatians 1:3 NASB)

His Truth In Love,